John 13:22-27 WEB
The disciples looked at one another, perplexed about whom he spoke.  One of his disciples, whom Jesus loved, was at the table, leaning against Jesus’ breast.  Simon Peter therefore beckoned to him, and said to him, “Tell us who it is of whom he speaks.”  He, leaning back, as he was, on Jesus’ breast, asked him, “Lord, who is it?”  Jesus therefore answered, “It is he to whom I will give this piece of bread when I have dipped it.” So when he had dipped the piece of bread, he gave it to Judas, the son of Simon Iscariot.  After the piece of bread, then Satan entered into him. Then Jesus said to him, “What you do, do quickly.”
Jesus had intimacy with his disciples. So much, that when he was about to be betrayed, the Apostle John leaning against his breast was able to ask him who was going to betray him. It’s refreshing to find this level of intimacy in the Bible. And it is astonishing. John was actually leaning on Jesus. That alone is incredible intimacy. A loving, respectful intimacy with God is a feature of the New Covenant. The disciples felt so close to Jesus, that they asked him who the betrayer was, and Jesus told them.
Jesus told them what was about to happen and then went on to show who the betrayer was. He dipped a piece of bread and handed it to Judas. Then he told Judas to do what he had in his heart to do. Jesus released Judas to betray him. Even with the apostle that is about to betray him, Jesus maintains a certain level of intimacy. He and Judas shared a secret. They both knew that Judas thought Jesus was a fool and someone in need of intervention. Jesus understood Judas’ greed and releases him to do his evil tasks. Judas did not shame or berate Judas, rather, like a sheep going to slaughter Jesus humbly tells him to go and do what he does quickly.
Humility is a path to intimacy with Jesus. It was humility that led Jesus into great intimacy with the Father. Psalm 138:6 says the Lord stays far from the proud. In pride is the wisdom of the world. In pride, we rationalize our sin and delude ourselves. But with humility, we are pleased to do things God’s way. Humility does not lose hope when things are difficult. As things became more dangerous for Judas and the apostles, Judas used worldly wisdom to delude himself into selling information as to Jesus’ whereabouts. Had Judas trusted Jesus as the rest of the disciples did, he would have humbly followed Jesus, even to his own destruction.
Lord, save me from using worldly wisdom in my relationship with you. Let all my thinking be with humility and lowliness. Help me stand firm on the day of trial, not losing my hope. Forgive me for rationalizing sin and help me serve you gladly. In Jesus’ name, amen.